Friday, May 22, 2026

Christianity Is the Path to Re-Enchantment

I'm increasingly convinced that this is true.

The modern consumerist bureaucratic world is achingly banal, and I'm saying that as someone who likes a lot of it. Personally, I find a lot of beauty in ordinary things. One of my favourite places in Dublin (or anywhere) is a fountain in a suburban indoor shopping centre. I even think the morning commute has a sort of grandeur. ("Men my brothers, men the workers, ever seeking something new...")

But there's only so far the beauty of the ordinary can extend. McDonald's is not beautiful, except insofar as anywhere is beautiful. Starbucks is not beautiful. Tesco is not beautiful. Corporate offices are not beautiful. Indeed, all these places are ugly and soul-sapping.

It's not just physical environments that lack beauty in our modern world. It's the public realm, where people increasingly meet as consumers and atomised individuals-- without a shared history, faith, ideology, culture, political struggle, etc.

Personally, I very often feel I am suffocating in contemporary society-- suffocating spiritually, culturally, aesthetically.

There are many possible paths to re-enchantment, and I think we should make use of them all (except those that are actually evil), but I'm convinced that Christianity is the royal road.

I'm a Christian because I believe that Jesus Christ rose from the dead and the Creeds are true. However, I also believe Christianity has great stores of social and cultural wealth, which even agnostics, atheists, and generalized theists or deists can appreciate. (As expressed in Larkin's great poem, "Church going".)

Even somebody invoking the name of Jesus Christ, in a serious way, seems to create a new atmosphere, a richer and heightened atmosphere. I understand why there is a Feast of the Holy Name.

Christianity has so many resources to achieve re-enchantment: the Mass (and other religious services), prayer, devotions such as the rosary, saints' days, feasts and fasts, Scripture, devotional art, pilgrimages, the sign of the cross, religious history, hymns, iconography, etc.

The greatest thing about these is that they can pervade everyday life, even the most banal parts of it.

Other religions can also help to re-enchant modern life. A city street is transformed by the presence of the Jehovah's Witnesses selling the Watchtower magazine or Hare Krishnas singing their mantras. I have a great deal of respect for that in itself.

But since I believe Christianity is true, I want the re-enchantment of modern society to come from Christianity.

Holding onto Wonder

How do we hold onto wonder? I am faced with this question all the time.

It's not always a problem for me. For instance, there are parts of life that never cease to fill me with wonder. Indeed, my sense of wonder regarding them is ever-deepening. For instance: words and phrases (and language in general), traditions and customs, memory, time and space...basically, primary and primordial things. 

And then there's books. Books fill me with a sense of wonder.

And yet...there are other things which I think should fill me with wonder but don't.

For instance: escalators. I was fascinated with escalators as a kid and always wanted to go on them. Now I take them daily without any sense of joy or excitement. I try to cultivate it, but it's difficult.

The same should apply to technology in general. Why do we get so blasé about switching on a lightbulb or riding on a bus? These things are marvels. I certainly couldn't make them myself.

And let's not forget our own bodies. Every second my body has to do innumerable things that I don't even begin to understand, just to keep me alive. And somehow I forget this.

Another blasé attitude I find myself fighting against is my attitude to places. Places become invisible to me. I want to be able to walk down a street I've walked down a thousand times with the same sense of discovery I felt the first time I walked down it.

Apparently this exhortation is hung in many a Catholic sacristy: "Oh priest, celebrate this Mass as if it were first Mass, your last Mass, your only Mass." I would like to carry the same spirit through my entire day. But it's tough!

Thursday, May 21, 2026

A Weird Experience

About an hour ago, I did some vanity googling and found that a blog post I'd written had been quoted in this article from the journal Emotion, Space and Society. It's only a few lines.

You might say that's not very surprising. And it wouldn't be...except for the fact that, out of the vast sea of academic titles, pretty much the only one I've read for pleasure in the last few years is this very journal!

And recently, too. Within the last year, I'm pretty sure, I spent several evenings trawling through its archives.

It gave me less pleasure than I hoped. As I've mentioned on innumerable occasions, the concept of atmosphere fascinates me. Not the gases in the air, but the thing you encounter when you walk into a party, a sports stadium, or a funeral home. Amazingly little has been written about this from an academic perspective, or even a journalistic perspective.

Sadly, the contributors to Emotion, Space and Society insist on dragging their left-wing politics into the subject, in a very obtrusive way. (Articles in the May 2026 issue include 
"Affective climate injustice and infrastructural Apathy: Rethinking public pedagogies for climate engagement" and "Migrants as homo affectus: How emotion shapes return migration among Iranians". This is typical.)

Nonetheless, there were a few interesting articles, where no particular hobby-horse was involved.

I've even contemplated submitting an article to this journal! Having an article published in an academic journal is an intermittent fantasy of mine. However, it would be a lot of work.

But isn't this whole experience strange? The internet tells me that there's about forty thousand academic journals published in English. Yes, the fact that I'm interested in the subject matter lowers the odds, but still...

This is my second blog post in a row about Ballymun. I grew up in Ballymun and lived there for most of my life. It was the only high-rise estate in Ireland (it's no longer high-rise). This means it was utterly distinctive. When Ballymun came on television, you recognized it instantly. It was also fairly notorious, so it was distinctive for that reason too.

"Distinctive". The funny thing is, my whole life seems to have been about this word. I'm obsessed with distinctiveness and the perceived loss of distinctiveness in modern life, as longtime readers of this blog will know. A craving for special times and special places has been my lifelong preoccupation.

Does this preoccupation come from the distinctiveness of my own life? My name is distinctive (almost unique). I came from a distinctive suburb. I went to an Irish-language school, which was already quite distinctive in itself, but was even more distinctive for being in a working class area. And I grew up in what I can only describe as the working class intelligentsia.

Of course, everybody's life and upbringing is distinctive in some way. Still, this theory occurs to me when I wonder why I'm so fixated on distinctiveness. (Not that I'm alone in this. I think more and more people are worrying about it as our world becomes more globalized and standardized.)

New Year's Eve 2019

This was a poetic experiment I made a few years ago. I was trying to write directly from my own experience, without using fictional characters or scenarios, and I was trying to write about very specific themes.

This poem is about a New Year's Eve party I attended in Ballymun, the working class housing estate in Dublin where I lived most of my life, on the last day of 2019. Everything mentioned in it is true.

My father had died that May. Every New Year's Eve, he would attend a party held in his best friend's house, where the crowd was very Irish republican and there was much singing of ballads and other songs. This would be the first such party without him.

I did indeed spend about a half an hour that evening trying to find some documentary or TV show looking back on the decade ending that night, and I was indeed unsuccessful. And I did find myself wondering if decades, as we had come to understand them, had simply stopped happening.

The housing estate where the party was held, Sillogue Gardens, was a particular area in Ballymun that I associated with the youth culture of the 1980s. When I was a kid, it always seemed full of teenagers. Even when I lived there myself, later on, it didn't lose this atmosphere.

My father used to say "Next year in Jerusalem" every New Year's Eve. I'm not sure exactly what he meant. Presumably it was a vague wish for a better year. 

I describe my father as a "myth-maker" as he had a rare gift for lending significance to his own experiences, through the stories he told of them. I've only met about three people who had this talent, if that's the right word, to the same degree.

I describe history as an "uncertain sure thing" because it's definitely going to happen (barring the destruction of the whole human race), but it's impossible to anticipate.

The people at the party did go from singing Irish rebel songs to singing rock and pop songs, which I found depressing.

What I don't mention in the poem is that I recited "The Raven" by Edgar Allen Poe. It didn't go down well. I could tell everybody was bored and listening politely.

Is it possible for a poem with such personal themes and subject matter to speak to a general reader? Well, you decide.

New Year's Eve 2019 

In the last hours of a decade with no name
I flicked through channels, looking for some show
Where guests would put the decade in a frame
And hang it. Surely there’d be one…but no.

The fifties, sixties, seventies…had they
Expired like this, uncommented upon?
I didn't think so, even though they say
You never see the Zeitgeist till it's gone.

My father hated end-of-year reviews
Nostalgist though he was, the same as me.
A dinosaur addicted to the news.
This was the first New Year he wouldn't see.

Tonight, bizarrely, he’d be missing from
The New Year's hooly that his best friend threw
Year after year. So I’d agreed to come
Although I felt uneasy in that crew.

They sang all night and drank to beat the band
And I'd heard decades of familiar tales
About them (sometimes more than I could stand,
Weary of tracing their well-trodden trails).

All socialists, republicans, and such,
Children of Pearse and Connolly and Sands.
Their slogans (though not mine) were double Dutch
To this new Ireland of Big Tech and brands.

We’d moved to Sillogue Gardens just a bit
After my mother’s death, when the Twin Towers
Were newly fallen. Though we’d lived in it
For eighteen years, it never quite seemed ours.

Our New Year hosts had lived there all the time
I’d been alive. It was their realm. And yet
Its atmosphere was not the sad sublime
Of rebel ballads, rosy with regret.

To me, at least, the Gardens still preserved
Their nineteen-eighties vibe, all teenage pop
And roller-skates and bubble-gum. It’s where
I’d seen most of that kid’s stuff, growing up.

Who would recall the twenty-teens like that?
And what about the noughties? Just a name.
The view down twenty years was almost flat.
I strained for images and nothing came.

Well, New Year’s Eve. I took my corner spot.
The early-party awkwardness went by.
(They spoke more Irish than I thought, this lot.)
I listened to a story from some guy.

The night advanced. The rebel songs began.
The grievances of decades filled the air.
Songs lend us life beyond man’s natural span.
My father sang these songs. He wasn't there.

And as the night wore on, the party seemed
Almost a wake…the old spoke of the dead.
So few this year, where once this house had teemed
Each New Year's Eve. That's what my father said.

The rebel ballads ended, and they sung
“The Boxer” and “the day the music died”.
The decade's final hour was almost done.
We went to see the fireworks start outside.

Kisses and hugs and phone calls and bad jokes.
“Next Year in Jerusalem” my father said
Each New Year's Eve. We stood and tried to coax
Some sense of wonder. Someone went to bed.

My father, myth-maker, was now a part
Of that uncertain sure thing, history.
Covid was next. Oh, hapless human heart,
What hopes and fears you fix on memory!

Poems I Like: Nelson Street by Suemas O'Sullivan (1912)

I've decided to separate my poetry posting into three categories: my own poems, my favourite poems, and poems that I like but that I wouldn't call "favourite".

As the eagle-eyed will have noticed, this is one of the latter. I came across it in an anthology of Irish poetry many, many years ago. Other than that, I know nothing of Seumas O'Sullivan.

But I really like this poem and it often comes into my head, especially since it captures the atmosphere of "the morning after the night before". (I love that phrase; like most clichés, it's a little poem in itself.)

I like this poem for several reasons:

1) Its sheer virtuosity. This, in my view, is the element of poetry that is most neglected in the modern world. Can the poet handle formal verse? Does it read awkwardly and incongruously, or smoothly and naturally? Elegance is its own beauty, whether it's a brilliantly-plotted farce that all comes together (or falls apart) in the last scene, a pirouette on an ice-rink, or a masterful handling of the rigours of rhyme and metre, as in this case.

2) The title "Nelson Street". Apparently this is in Phibsborough, a suburb of Dublin. I love titles that are place names, especially place names of smaller places-- such as streets. "Baker Street" by Gerry Rafferty is one of my favourite songs. This is a form of enchantment. It throws a glow over the place, whether it's a celebration or the opposite.

3) As I said previously, I love the atmosphere, particularly the "morning after the night before" atmosphere. I love drawn curtains, lowered blinds, and dark morning kitchens-- especially a morning of seclusion after a night of sociability. I love "in between" times. Admittedly, the atmosphere the poet is invoking in this poem doesn't seem intended to be particularly cosy or pleasant. But I still like it.

4) Ending the poem on the title of another work is a nice touch. 

 Nelson Street by Seumas O'Sullivan

There is hardly a mouthful of air
In the room where the breakfast is set,
For the blind is still down though it’s late,
And the curtains are redolent yet
Of tobacco smoke, stale from last night.
There’s the little bronze teapot, and there
The eggs on the blue willow-plate,
And the sleepy canary, a hen,
Starts faintly her chirruping tweet
And I know, could she speak, she would say,
“Hullo there, what’s wrong with the light?
Draw the blind up, let’s look at the day.”
I see that it’s Monday again,
For the man with the organ is there;
Every Monday he comes to the street
(Lest I, or the bird there, should miss
Our count of monotonous days)
With his reed-organ, wheezy and sweet,
And stands by the window and plays
“There’s a Land that is Fairer than This.”

Wednesday, May 20, 2026

To Change a Lightbulb

Here's a poem by me that I posted before, but that I'm posting again now.

I worked on it for ages, trying to stitch together all of my thoughts and feelings about the loss of oral lore, the ties that bind generations, the presence and absence of historical memory, and the lived experience of recent decades. I was quite pleased with the outcome. Of course, it sank without trace.

My favourite of my own poems are "think pieces" which involve a solitary character doing something fairly mundane and expressing the thoughts that go through their head. They are strongly influenced by Philip Larkin poems such as "Lines on a Young Lady's Photograph Album" and "Church Going".

Maybe I asked for it, giving it the title that I did, but it seemed the best possible title. I've smuggled in some of my favourite words and phrases, such as "phantasmal", "winter's tale". And I'm proud of the last line.

To Change a Lightbulb by Maolsheachlann Tiernan Finbarr Ó Ceallaigh

Not even looking up, he flicks the switch.
The room lights for a moment, then goes back
To evening gloom.
He mutters to himself: "Son of a bitch..."
Then stomps off to another room
Irked that his train of thought was thrown off track.

He reappears, still cursing, with a new
Sixty watt bayonet lightbulb in his hand.
He drags a chair
To the centre of the room, and in a few
More moments, the new bulb is hanging there
Waiting to light the room at his command.

Still standing on the chair, he finds himself
Staring out at the night's phantasmal fall.
Out of the past
A scene comes, from some high-up mental shelf;
Him and his father, laughing, as they cast
A host of shadow puppets on the wall

One power-cut night some fifty years ago.
He'd thought of that, in college, when he'd heard
Of Plato's Cave.
If life was only one long puppet show
Was that so bad? Nostalgia's balmy wave
Sweeps over him, and hits him unprepared.

Why had he never shadow-puppeted
For Liam or Deirdre, down through all those years?
Guilt seizes him:
He pushes back. If that's the worst a kid
Has to complain about
... But in the dim
And dying light a vast assembly nears

Of long-dead relatives he never knew.
He thinks of them, filling whole nights like this
With winter tales
And ballads, legends, riddles, all that grew
From fire and shade. His cynicism fails
Faced with this world he never thought to miss.

A few stray ghosts were all he'd ever known
Lingering by the camp-fire, long ago.
Where were they now?
Had that all-seeing eye, the mobile phone,
Spared any? Could the internet allow
A single local legend skin and bone?

A sort of strangled panic fills his soul.
Was it past helping? There was, after all,
Still candlelight.
But that was crazy-- time would only roll
One way. It was futility to fight
That conqueror, the white switch on the wall.

He steps down to the floor. They start to fade--
The all-too-quiet dead, the mute banshee,
The ghosts of ghosts,
As sad as a tired child, the games all played,
He hits the switch, and all that fading host
Are gone. The light falls on solidity.

Memorable Descriptions from Obituaries

This morning I was reading Great Lives: A Century in Obituaries, a book of prominent peoples' obituaries from The Times.

I was greatly pleased by two particular passages, taken from two different obituaries. Can you guess who the obituarist is writing about?

Here's the first: "He remained a teenager even in his eighties-- and a late Victorian one, at that. Boat Race Night of Mafeking Year may be roughly the point at which he came to a standstill." This person died in 1975.

And here's the second, for somebody who died in 1980: "A Billy Bunter who had somehow turned out to be a great artist."

I had a quick look to see if the authors of the obituaries were given anywhere, but they don't seem to be.

(Incidentally, I was going to give this blog post the title "Guess The Stiff". But then I remembered my dislike for this kind of cheap levity which pervades our culture. Today even bus advertisements routinely make bawdy puns or double-entendres. But it's not just bawdy jokes I'm complaining about here. I regret all the jokey blog post titles I ever posted on this blog. Even museum and gallery displays now use titles that are drawn from famous movies or songs. I don't mind this kind of thing in tabloid newspapers, where it's raised to an art-form and is part of the whole atmosphere. My problem is that it's getting everywhere. I'm trying to be more priggish.)